“But he remained silent…”
There is a lot of writing this morning about Jesus knowing when to speak and when to be quiet; about meekness not being weakness and how He just didn’t get sucked in to defend himself.
But then there is the part where He did speak. He answered a question. However it is a bit inaccurate to say that was why he spoke because he had been asked two questions before that and on those he was silent. The difference to me was of defending himself against trumped up accusations verses giving a straightforward report.
I really was struck by what Lynne Burkholder posted:
Meekness understands the difference of when to remain silent and when to speak.
Meekness learns to remain on the offense while refusing to be pulled to the defense.
Meekness is understanding who you are and knowing when and where to declare it.
Meekness is facing accusations, facing lies, and death and continuing on the path you know to be true.
Meekness is knowing the truth and letting that provide you strength when others have a wrong opinion of you.
Meekness is knowing your purpose and keeping with it despite the lack of support.
The big question – to speak or be silent – keeps running through my brain this morning like a repeating digital marque. I’ve been hurt – certainly it is unintentional – but I feel discounted and marginalized. And worse I feel ashamed for having these feelings.
And maybe that is why I try to speak not about myself but about what these actions, if repeated, would do to someone else in my position. The listeners don’t get it. They don’t see the problem. They think I am being ridiculous and unreasonable and not a team player. And for the first time ever I seriously just don’t want to even be a part of this team anymore.
Lynne’s statements are clarifying for me. They identify the fulcrum of meekness that lies between the opposing actions of speaking or silence. So today I will prayerfully ask for meekness in my situation and if it becomes words… I will know the meekness of Jesus has settled within me when the message, prompted by hurt, can be delivered in healing.